frustrated, and still not pregnant

*fingers crossed* I have an appointment with my ob/gyn tomorrow to start making a plan of where to go from here... if you're of the praying type, please send one my way. I want to be a mom more than anything in the world, and it's just really scary to think that might not happen the way I want it to.

Hi ergriffin, Welcome to SupportGroups.com . I can understand your feeling the way you do. It can be very stressful trying to get pregnant. Let us know how you appointment goes with the doctor. Keep sharing with us. I know how much it helps to talk. We are here for you. I will pray for you. ((((hugs))))

I really admire you for being so supportive of your pregnant twin sister, even as you go through the ups and downs of trying to get pregnant. It is very normal (and human) to feel "jealous" in this situation. When I was going through my fertility procedures, two of my sisters became pregnant around the same time. I chose to be lovingly honest with them about my conflicting feelings. One one hand, I was so very happy and excited for both of them. At the same time, I felt devastated that I could not get pregnant myself. It was a very challenging time for me, and my sisters were very understanding and supportive. Only you can decide how much you can handle being around other women who are pregnant (including your beloved twin sister.) Since you are so close, I am sure that she will also understand and support you, just as my sisters did with me. Please keep us posted on your fertility journey -- my thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband.

My doc (who is also my sister's doc) helped me out today... he's going to put me on clomid for a few cycles to make sure I'm ovulating the right way. He said "bless your heart, having to sit out in the waiting room with all those cranky pregnant women." He also said I need to calm down and that just because I'm young doesn't mean it's going to take less time to get pregnant. So I guess I'll be waiting longer... patience, patience!

To add to that, my doc doesn't want to do a full workup on me yet. He said a year is too early to do that. What I really think is that I'm not showing signs of endometriosis and that he doesn't want to do the surgery because I'd have to pay out of pocket... so he may be holding me off. Insurance won't pay for it because my miscarriage is considered a successful pregnancy, which they say makes me fertile. So if I'm still not pregnant next January, then he can do it and have it paid for.

Anything that insurance will pay for will be a great help! Things sure add up so quickly with all these fertility procedures. Glad to hear that you are doing what you can to get the ball rolling with your fertility treatments!

ergriffin,
I am 27 myself and having the same issue. However i do have a 2 year old son. He is so amazing and smart. My husband and i got pregos with him in only 2 months and now we are on 15 months and going for the next. its so frustrating. I wana cry every time i get my period. Its to the point i dont wana have sex or even try anymore. Keep your head hi and keep trying. I offten think if i get rid of my sons baby things maybe i will get pregos because i will have nothing for the baby but thats just silly. I have no insurance so i have no idea if its my husband or not. I had a test done and i shows that i ovulate however that means nothing to me at this point. It is hard when everyone around you seems pregos. I just had 5 girlfriends and a sister inlaw all have babys in the past 2 months and it is so sad yet so happy. i feel guilty about being sad.

mktkuper, I so understand... I feel guilty for being upset when I'm around my sister because I don't want her to feel bad for me. My insurance will pay for "tests that the plan deems necessary"- which means NOTHING to me... they could completely deny everything. Insurance won't pay for my clomid either... that's going to be $50 a month (for 5 pills) but that'll be much cheaper than fertility treatments, so I'm going to pray that it works. My mom called me today and said "I totally had a dream that you were out buying diapers for your triplet boys." So maybe the meds will help me have multiples!!!