Still crying!!

You are very young. God works in a mysterious way. Have faith and leave everything in His hands. When you feel like crying, say a prayer and ask for His help and He will show you the way. Wishing you all the happiness. God bless you.

Its hard to enjoy things when you feel like things are missing as for the gaining weight i did that to on anti depressants i found it helped a lot to find me time, reading a book or working out or even just having privacy for a good cry. I started writing in a journal to that helped me a lot

Wow! You are describing exactly how I feel! I really do feel your pain. I too have been struggling with getting pregnant for over 3 years now. We have been together for 13+. My husband was told that his sperm count was ZERO! so you can only imagine how I took the news. I too feel like I can't talk to him. Men just don't understand the intense feeling a woman has to bear children. It's like our whole lives based on the thought that one day we will become mothers, and one day like ton of bricks someone tells you "no this may not happen for you" is a total heart-crushing experience. Please know that you are not alone. I will keep you on prayer and know that you are not alone. We are all in this together and somehow we will all get through this. Best wishes. (HUUUUGGGGSSSSS!)

Thanks so much for all your thoughts and prayers. Today is another difficult day. Got my period yesterday. Even though I know the possibility of becoming pregnant is very very small, it is still hard to get up and function when you know it's not going to happen this month again!! I've been keeping myself busy going to more graduate classess and I'm currently in my last semester. I'm interning for Special Education Supervisor. I'm really having a difficult time doing the work for it and I think it's because in the back of my mind I'm thinking ...What am I going to do when I'm finished to keep my mind off becoming pregnant. This usually leads to arguements with my husband so I put off doing the work for school. It is during these times that I feel so scattered and disconnected to anyone or anything. I know I have to keep taking the medication but I'm tired of gaining weight. I've thought of joining an exercise group but the internship is taking up too much of my time (yes, another excuse). It's also difficult to have faith during these times when I get so angry about not being able to be a mother. Wow, after reading this and knowing I'm not the only one feeling this way makes me wonder how any positive thoughts can help but they eventually get in my scrambled brain and I do aprreciate any support at this time. Thanks for listening to my ramblings.

Hello...I am really happy to have found this site... Let me share a little about me...I hear and understand all you are saying and wish you the best... I am 37 years old and I have been trying to conceive for about 10 years. I feel like I'm going insane. It feels like I'm running away from everyone, my husband, my parents, my siblings and myself. I feel so ashamed and inadequate. I feel disassociated and disconnected from everyone around me and it's worse at the sight of a child. Just about every day I cry and feel so lonely. Why did infertility happen to me? I have been through every test imaginable and the doctors have dubbed our infertility as unexplained. I am depressed and anxious all the time, and have not been able to be a good wife for the past 10 years...it feels so emotionally draining. God, please help me...

Julie have you talked about adoption with your husband?? or is that totally out. Waitingonamiracle have you considered IVF?

I can relate too. We just found out my husband has a sperm count of zero too and he isn't open to using donor sperm. It's so hard. I'm so glad you have reached out and are getting help. It's grief and very misunderstood by society.

I'm keeping you in my thoughts.